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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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Day 12Today is the day
You sit bemused
All worries evaporate
Your smile enthused
Surprised by the intellect
The little ones hold
All stress put aside
By their smiles of gold.

Gracious WingsThe sight of beauty in the night
One glimpse and I'm mentally gone
On a faraway ride so beautiful
It's essence uncaptured in song

The powerful gusts of wind do strike
Upon the full orbed sky
From thy wings- so beautiful
Their music, my lullaby

The flute dost play whenst he takes me
From where i lie in misery
Up in the sky away from life
Just him, his wings, and me

I cannot seem to comprehend
But his arms feel just right
I shed a tear of reality
And leave my world tonight.

And If I Die Before I Wake...Going crazy
Somewhat spacey
Someone save me
From myself tonight

The world on my shoulders
Just laughs from my beholders
I cannot scream without a fight

In a war of virtue and of vengeance
The devil clears the sky
A laugh, a smirk, a seductive stance
As I embrace the evil inside

My vision stark red
My aura black
I await nimble
For the attack
For you to come
And to see
Nothing good comes
From that trinity
Go ahead,
give it your all
Your prayer beads
Are sure to fall
And as they do
I encroach for the kill
Just another "martyr"
It's just "His will"

Chills through my spine as the blood newly wet
Poors forth from thy bo

Day 11Today is the day
Where you sit, tempted
Wondering in silence
Was it fate? Or had you dreamt it?
The world unbeknownst to you
Leaves you quivering in its wake
Indecisive as ever
Of which path to take.

Changing With The TideThe sea
Relentlessly bashes it's enemies
Destroying those who attempt to fight it
But is coy with the younger girls.

The sea is enchanting
Gorgeous even
Entrancing the girls to it's wonders
What lies underneath, however
Is unbeknownst to the maidens who lust after it

Just as the sea demolishes it's enemies,
So too does it dispose of fair maidens hearts
Luring them in, with it's captivating mask of sincerity
Only to crash down any pride they hold dear
As they tumble, and fall into unfathomable depths
The sea only rises smugly. High tide brings again
New maidens to be whisked away
Soon to be devoured by the sea's strength
Who h

Day 10Today is the day
Where you reflect on your past
You remember he hurt you
That trust never lasts
And as you surpress yourself
From the tears you once cried
You pick up your chin
And remeber he lied.

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A Pain Indescribable

by ~MyLifeIsRiggs, May 23, 2010, 8:47:31 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

When one comment turns dusk into day
My heart stops beating
There was nothing I could do
My entire body weighted down with those words
Screams of protest scratched at my throat
Clawing to clamber out
But my mouth, stone
As I drown in confusion
I cannot fight it
I don't even attempt
As your words push me down ever further
Into the murky depths
One thought omnipotent
How could you…

A Pain Indescribableby ~MyLifeIsRiggs

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

with those words
you hurt me more than you could ever know...

~Critique as you like~

~PhotoPhantom15 May 31, 2010

another job well done!! <3 u r turning out to b one of m favorite poets on DA! <333

~MyLifeIsRiggs May 31, 2010

Aww thank you!!
You just made my day

<3333

~PhotoPhantom15 Jun 3, 2010

im glad!!!! <333333

~randomite93 May 24, 2010

Aweosme poem, the whole feeling behind it is cool XD

~MyLifeIsRiggs May 24, 2010

Thank you

~randomite93 May 25, 2010

Your welcome XD

~FlyHigh20 May 24, 2010

good question....how could you.....nice poem

~MyLifeIsRiggs May 24, 2010

-Sigh- I just...I don't know...the knife was just there and he made me so angry...oh wait, different topics? o.O

XPPPP thanks

~FlyHigh20 May 25, 2010

what knife? I hate when people make me angry..it's so hard

you're welcome

~MyLifeIsRiggs May 25, 2010

Haha I was kidding. Like you asked me "how could you?"
so I meant there was a knife there and he angered me soo....yeah haha nvm xP

Definitely is hard when people make you angry >.<
(this poem was more about the shock of what he said and the sadness that ensued)

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